Boredom, Conflict, Good/Evil: The Connection (#25)

Does anyone see the connection?

Anyone?.................

* = important information at end of blog
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People I know always complain about being bored, and I tell them to go do something. They usually tell me I dont know what to do.

I actually spent some time trying to think of a remedy for boredom. But people say there is none. Some people say do what you like to do.

But what is it that you like to do?
Some people say going shopping, some people say working out, or playing video games. Some people say absurd things. Yet, no matter the what it is, someone probably can consider it fun.

But people often wonder how to not be bored if they cant do the things they like. How is that possible? Is there a remedy for boredom?

The more I think of it, the more I come down to actually understanding that boredom is just a lack of conflict in the mind.

No one is bored when their in some kind of conflict, whether that conflict is fist fighting with your enemy (social conflict), going to war (political conflict*1), trying to understand who you are (identity conflict), going on anger rampages like me (logical conflict), and Infinitly conflicting events.

Many people think of the word conflict as dealing with some sort of political/physical element in it. Yet conflict is on an infinite level.

Social Conflict
Political conflicts
Identity conflicts
Psychological conflicts
Biological conflicts
Physical Conflict (like disease)
Logic Conflicts
Truth Conflicts
-----the list goes on forever dealing from things like not having a pencil for class to trying to understand who you are in the world, trying to find truth, trying to find food, trying to figure out what your girlfriend/boyfriend is trying to do/say, it just goes on....

But how does conflict relate to boredom?

Boredom is a lack of conflict. Many of you will say that being NOT bored is doing something you like. But doing something you like in itself is a conflict of some sort.

Even going shopping or going to the pool or drinking at a party.

The shopping is basically, your mind trying to quell your boredom by doing something you like. This makes you feel good (happy emotion), thus happiness is an emotion designed to give you a goal to supply meaning/direction temporarily till you find more happiness/meaning, So inevitably your shopping is a way to win your conflict of boredom by doing something that makes you FEEL good.

*Boredom ceases when conflict begins.*2

So where does good and evil reside in this blog then if we've gotten down to boredom and how conflict is directly related to it?

Well, the more I think of it, many people are out in the world creating conflict not because of their beliefs, YES thats the justification, but I think it goes even deeper than that.
Its because of many things, lack of logic, lack of self knowledge, but mostly lack of conflict.

The mind seems to have this goal of not being bored. Everyone complains about boredom when their younger, because they dont have enough to do with their time, so they try to find things to do.

*People inadvertantly start conflict, just to surpress their boredom.*3

People will give rational justification to why their doing something dramatic. Like for example lets take the wars and major conflicts that have happened.

They all have happened for MUCH more basic human emotions than because of some higher greater cause. Like take Bin Laden for example, he says he hates the US for many reasons, but i think hes giving himself those reasons, in his mind because hes at the most basic level bored, but he secretly tells himself (even without his own knowledge) that hes part of Al-Qaida because of some higher purpose.

Think about it, he has royal family in many different countries, he has MONEY, he can practically do whatever he wants, hes probably bored out of his mind, hes done probably many things his whole life that people like you and me have never even thought existed. Its probably that hes done SO much (to his perception at least) that he has come up with a logical appeal (to his mind), to do something else entirely (join the al-qaida and fight in a holy war). But at its MOST BASIC LEVEL, the ideal is only represented from boredom.

Boredom causes him to tell himself logical things to start something conflicting to him (in this case the world too) to give him something to do. He turns that logical thinking into belief, into direction, giving him something to logically appeal off of, to say to others WHY he does things.

*Im starting to think thats what most people do, I fear.*4

Good and Bad comes into here, as in many people say they wouldnt do something to stop their boredom if it meant destroying peace and starting new conflicts, and getting rid of good. So thus many people are bored.

People wont sacrifice they will of society liking them, to just not be bored. People then TRY to change their views and beliefs to fit societies helping hand, and thus emotions/and feeling arise that CANNOT be explained. Even by the local psychologist, or the proffessional. They cannot be explained because the emotion is so mutated (from down to the basic emotion arises new more complicated ones if the original set of emotion/s cannot be fufilled), or such a complicated emotion, people cannot understand it. Thus the origin of the cause is lost in time and preached as something else, or many other things.

*Boredom has the potential to cause conflict.*5

People claim they have rational or logical reasons for why they do things. But the reality is, is you only do things because your emotions, your feelings tell you, you like something just because you do, you do things because you choose to do things. Your chemical balances and electrical impulses tell you thats what you like.

However on the next thought of mine, many people dont do things they would think is fun or do do things society thinks is fun, because society will condemn you somehow if you dont do what they like, so people learn to try and like things society likes, they may not like it to the fullest, and feel somewhat void in themselfs, but you cant tell what that null feeling is.

Its amazing how many problems are linked ultimately, and they come down to the most basic desires and freedoms of naturality, but people cannot understand them because their so complicated.

I try to explain them here, this is just one of the trillions of thought proccess I have.

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Important infomation in document ****

1**Political conflict is ususally derived off of some basic human desire, leader vs leader
2**Thats the remedy for boredom, yet its more of a truth ideology than a remedy, but nevertheless people want to know why their bored, there you go...
3**Conflict is when you get down to the roots of why it happens (in humans) is just the most basic emotion (boredom) trying to open itself up
4**Many people say they have logical reasons for why they believe something or get involved with a conflict or start one, but its just another human desire/emotion in its deepest roots 5**Yes, another ideaology

To understand is the beginning of knowing.....

Training is nothing, Will is everything (#24)

Im not sure why, but I keep having re-occuring thoughts on something that I cant seem to extricate from my mind. Will....and Training...

I train and workout vigorously, as often as I can, I self study things people wouldnt even consider existing at my age. Yet I do it for a higher cause; that cause is in my mind worthy of para-military training and extreme working out/ extreme self teaching. Which I know is not really worthy of anything but I feel like doing it, so im doing it anyways, because I choose too.

But the one thing that sticks in my mind more than anything else is, in real life training isnt everything. Everyone thinks that if your in the military you cant be killed or hurt, or if your some special guy capable of doing amazing things like flying(just a random example), or have some special ability that no one else has. But in real life anything, and I mean ANYTHING can be done to stop, or do something against anyone no matter their abilities.

As long as you put yourself in a mind frame that exists only to you, your perception, your reality will become twisted and distorted to fit your desire. Many people say proffessionals require vigorous training, but certain proffessions require WILL. Training is something obviously, if you cant figure out how to add 2 +2 then clearly theres something wrong.

But when you get deeper into understanding certain things like saving lives, or helping people, or military and politics, you start to realize that anything can be done, the training at that point is at such a level that everyone is close to the same level of ability, thus will starts to mean everything. The will inside your body should drive you to do amazing/powerfull things, and make you exceed to to have different/weird abilities normal people dont seem to posses. Inevitably people may call you weird or other oddities, but in the end result youve just become something entirely different from them, in a better more positive note.

"The training is nothing, will is everything!"

Self-Concept and Self-Ability (#23)

Many people say that being selfish is a bad thing to be, so many people refrain from doing activities that would boost themselves and would only do something to boost another (boost meaning: Materials, self-esteem, just the basic feeling of that good warm feeling).

What many people dont understand though, is that you can do things for yourself without being selfish; many people associate anything with the word self, as selfish because many parents or hierarchs in society condemn it so badly, people become afraid to express the self.

Self Expression and Self understanding is probably the two most vital important things to your self concept and self esteem. If you cant express yourself you become trapped by what you cant do and you usually learn to find things that you CAN express, that society will let you.

Sometimes those things that you are allowed to express dont go over well with your mind and you usually have that feeling of void still in your body and you cant tell what it is exactly, but its there.

Many people are just not able to express themselves and thus are pushed downward, making them feel very crappy about themselves and life in general. In order to express yourself meaningfully, you must first handedly understand yourself. Understanding yourself can be difficult today, especially if you comform to society alot and go off of OTHER PEOPLES thoughts.

Learning to do things for yourself and think for yourself is the first main thing to do. Once you can do things for you, think for yourself, and just be yourself and say NO to conforming blindly, you are on the plateau to self understanding.

If you want to be in some sort of group, many people would call that conforming. If you want to be in a group of some sort, then thats what YOU WANT, thats not conforming; doing what you want to do is NEVER conforming.

But conforming to something just because others like it or it will make you look cool or good, or whatever; just conforming blindly sets the tone for your intelect and how much you can do with your life and how much others can control you....
If you want to be miserable keep conforming.
If you want that same empty void feeling, keep going.
If you want to be confused and not understand life, keep conforming.
I guarantee thats the path your heading towards.

But if you want a life of joy and understanding you must understand yourself, and express yourself honestly by what others might consider selfish. They themselfs (the ones who say you are selfish) are the ones who are usually miserable inside but never show it.

They cant understand, they wont. Because they can never grap self concept. Self-help, self expression, self understanding. Those things will show you life in a much lighter way, in a dark world.

Understand yourself.....

Empathy (#22)

I often remember all the things that were horrible in my life, rarely the joyous ones. I usually remember the memorys vividley. Even if this bad thing was not a very big thing. It still affected me and was a catalyst for what would help me understand later on in my life; empathy. Im not sure why I usually remember negative things. I wished it werent, but it is, its how my mind thinks, ive been presented with more negative connotations of life than the positive ones.

I often see or hear of horrible things happening to other people or things. Those memories are implanted on those peoples mind, and depending on the person, who knows if they have the mental will power to stand up against the emotions they're feeling and feel okay about what has happened. Some people have mental break downs everytime they remember something horrible. When i hear the stories, or watch a video, or read a book; i can feel the emotions, like poking and prodding in my body, the illusion forms in my mind of the same thing that has happened to them. I feel the anger, the sympathy, the stupidity, the sadness, the happiness; i feel the emotions. I have that empathy residing in my body.

But what is empathy? By definition its the ability to identify another individuals situation, emotions, feelings, and motives. Its basically the ability to see someones point of view from their view. To step into their shoes, to become them for a moment, to understand why they are doing what their doing.

I gained an understanding of empathy through the negative, horrible things that have happened to me. I started to ask questions and wonder why people did these things. I never did them. I always asked my friends and family and they tried telling me. I slowly gained a full understanding of empathy after I started using the empathy in action. I would often see people getting picked on or doing something stupid to fit in. I could feel the emotional state they were trancing through. I started trying to put myself in everyones perception, in their shoes, so to speak; As to try and understand why they were doing what they were doing. The idea of understanding why they would do what they do, was very liberating. I could suddenly makes sense of why people did what they did, why they thought what they thought.

This Empathy driving through my body keeps me wanting to do things to help people with the horrible events. It makes me want to help people understand themself if they want to understand themselfs, it makes me want to help them if they need help, I want people to just feel like themselves, feeling good (whatever that means to them), and just have the feeling of positiveness flowing through their body like energy. I want people to feel good about themselves, granted they want to feel good about themselves.

Empathy has taught me alot about life, and inadvertantly showed me alot about psychology. The negative things in life have done its role to show me how great the positive things are, and in reality without any bad things in the way, you wouldnt feel the same way about those good things. Empathy has helped me overcome mental barriers that can be hard for others to overcome, to step up my life in a whole new way.

To understand is the begginning of knowing....